There are parts of my life that have dragged on and when I really think about it, it seems like I’ve been here an awful long time. Then I realize that soon I will be thirty years old. How did that happen so fast? Not a teen. Not a young adult. Or a twentysomething. Thirty. It is still tough for me to swallow. Most days I have to remind myself that I actually do have a real job and that this is my real house and I have a husband, and I did go through eight(ish) months of pregnancy and that really is my child. I still feel like it is just me and my sister playing “house” and that one day I’m going to wake up and realize that I am still 13, not THIRTY!!!
If I were to think back to when I was 13 or even 18 or 20 when I thought about these types of things and wondered where I would be when I turned 30 or where I wanted to be when I turned thirty, then I would be pretty pleased with myself. I’ve been happily married to my high school sweetheart for almost seven years. We still enjoy each other’s company, make each other laugh and I can’t imagine being with anyone else. We have a home that we both really like and we’re in the process of moving into our dream home (or as close to a dream home as you can get when you’re thirty). We have a child that we couldn’t live without and a dog that makes us happy. We both have jobs that we really love (95% of the time, which isn’t bad at all). We both even work for great companies in the area. We have been to a bunch of really cool places. We both still have our health and there really isn’t anything I would change. So I don’t know why I am having such a tough time turning 30.
Everyone keeps telling me that their 30s are the best. Eventually I will come to accept it. I keep reminding myself that any day on this side of the dirt is an accomplishment whether I’m 10 or 100. Until then, I’ll enjoy the last couple days of my 20s (and they really are numbered).