I am having a tough time turning 30 (more to come on this, I am sure). I have always had some issues with this age , so this isn’t something that just popped up out of the blue now that I’m thisclose to turning 30. So as with most things in my life approaching this “enormous” milestone, I am having some insecurities/doubts/crisies related to this blog.
When I started it, which let’s be honest, wasn’t all that long ago, I wanted it to be a funny yet cute way to express my feelings on being a mother, going through life events, baking, traveling and working out to lose baby weight. Continuing with the brutal honesty, there are millions upon millions of blogs that have to do with all of these things together or separately. Most of those blogs have millions and millions of faithful viewers. Although I love each and every one of you, I have devoted my career path to media and advertising, so one would think I would have a pretty good understanding on how to market myself and this blog.
With that being said, I need to take a long hard look at what I want to accomplish and what I want this blog to be about. I need to set myself apart from others that are out there or decide who I want my audience to be. Is this blog just for me or is it for everybody else? Do I want to devote my entire website to my new existence of being a mother (because there is no lack of those out there)? Should I be just sharing baking ideas and recipes (again, take a look at Pintrest, there are already a lot of them)? Will this blog be my opportunity to spread my writing wings? I love to write, I think I’m pretty good at it, but there are MUCH better writers out there. I can write about my weight loss journey, but right now there haven’t been very many milestones to celebrate. As of four weeks ago, I was still carrying some pounds of baby weight in addition to the 20 pounds I had put on the 4 years leading up to pregnancy. I can’t really write about running either. Even though I have almost 14 years of experience under my belt, I still don’t love running and a 3 mile run will still elicit as many moans, groans and procrastinating as a half marathon.
Maybe my biggest issue about turning 30 (and this blog) is that I am living a pretty normal life. I have a job, a house, a husband, a child and a dog. I have the same struggles as most everyone. There is never enough money, time or energy to accomplish everything I want to accomplish. There are always bills to pay and pounds to lose. Don’t get me wrong, I am immeasurably blessed in my life. I have a wonderful husband with a pretty compelling love story to back it up, a son who is perfect in every way (at least in my eyes), the sweetest dog ever and we live a very, very comfortable lifestyle. We go on trips. More trips than most people, but less than others. I have a job that I enjoy the majority of the time, but I still have gripes and grumps about it. I wish I had more time to hang out with Chase and to write and to workout and to bake and so far there are dreams and wishes that have fallen by the wayside, but that’s normal. I am so happy in my life and I have nothing to complain about (again with the brutal honesty).
So, excuse me while I have this bit of an identity crisis. If you see a bit of a blog makeover, now you know why and for all of you faithful readers out there, thank you for your loyalty and I hope you enjoy this glimpse into myself and my life as much as I enjoy writing about it.